I've always been emotionally dependent. Though, over the last year or so, it's been particularly worse. I don't know if I have a legitimate emotional problem, I just know I'm upset easily. I don't ever tell my parents or close friends because I don't want to cause trouble or complications, so I just kind of fake it around them if I'm upset. Suicidal thoughts often cross my mind for stupid reasons, but I think it's fine because they come and go fast and I don't do anything. I think that's called suicidal ideation. I'm not constantly miserable or anything, I am just easily depressed. I've never taken any kind of medication or etcetera, so I don't know anything about how bad I am. I'm sure I'll be okay, I feel like I am just whining now. But I don't ever really whine sincerely around people.
I know I have family and even some friends that love me, I just get frustrated so easily over the small things that technically don't matter in the long run. I can't help it. I want to like being alone because it's so easy, but I can't help liking attention from people. I suppose I'm just another person in this world who has a problem and doesn't really do anything about it.